For quite a few years now at least since 1998 or so I have been playing off and on with a technique called image streaming and I am only now getting the hang of it a little bit. It comes from the superb book by Win Wenger called The Einstein Factor, which I am not sure how popular or well-known that book is. He probably would be upset to know I don’t follow the tape recorder or feedback loop system he has created but I do think he would be pleased to know that I think the system of image streaming generally works. I read books some scripture for instance quite deeply and I have found that by reading and writing out a description of the imagery in my head to the answer to the question I ask of my subconscious I get feedback that can be really complex at least to my limited mind and by reading between the lines and listening to subtle promptings which one gets used to through image streaming one can figure out the silver lining in the cloud so to speak.
For instance I was inexplicably able to figure out that my Bible was of the opinion that Christ does not say the words Come up hither in Revelations 4:1 because they are not in the red script which characterizes my Bible when Christ speaks they are in black. This is probably a mistake because in Chapter 1 verse 10 it says John “heard behind me a great voice as of a trumpet” just as it says in Revelations 4:1 which later in Chapter 1 proves to be the voice of Christ. This may be confusing. I have explained it to the best of my abilities. But normally I would not be smart enough to figure out something like that. I may have noted it before and just forgotten. Anyone who read my notes would not know how I got what I got. I am not even sure I know and this has happened a number of times over the years since I have been practicing it in my own way sort of.
You can of course look up Win Wenger on the web I am sure. I heartily testify that if you follow the image streaming his way it won’t take you 16 years like it kind of did me.
Really there should be more time for the little things in my life. I have been so cognizant of the serious and that has made such things mundane and lacking in mystery. I would love to see my new baby relative about now. I should probably go take a walk while it is cooler. Appreciating a beautiful sunset sounds like fun. Maybe I should write a nice poem to that lady I have been thinking of and heck even give it to her. Remembrance of yesteryear brings to mind walking by the stream near our home in the country with KC my dog and my brothers. I have never really understood the tide against the sentimental. I am not even sure why I turn kind of nostalgic in the midst of these flowing thoughts.
Is it truly in one’s nature to be happy? I remember being happy growing up, tied as I was to the mystical in nature to the streams and trees and rocks and by mystical I mean that extra stuff which was like a light of heaven in nature. I see the spiritual in myself and others and know it must be natural to be happy. Even though my life has gone through periods of unhappiness even until quite recently I know I can be happy if I cling to what I love. Perhaps some of you will think me some hippie. Well, I cannot really help that.
I am sitting on my multi-colored couch with the purple fan on a low setting as the sun shines over my shoulders through the open blinds. My phone keeps setting off an alarm of an old bell announcing that my medicine is due which I have never turned off permanently. I just leave it on so I know that during weekdays the consumer run organization is about to start so it serves a purpose. But some of the non-copyright music is awful on those old phones. I am not tech-savvy enough to get new ring tones.
Anyway, I am trying to become a more educated person and more creative and thoughtful. I will never be a genius to my dismay though I am fairly intuitive. But I am keeping a journal and lists of things I need to know. Like I said in a previous blog I am trying to figure out my life goal. I need a lot more willpower before I can actualize any of the ideas that filter through my rather dismal subconscious. I am not sure they can be called ideas.
Just taking it easy today. Trying to relax and not be anxious about what might be. I am reading The Age Of Innocence by Edith Wharton. So far it is just okay. I probably should watch the movie instead. I think I preferred the Henry James book about a whole other Archer a female in that one. Isabel Archer I think it was. That however did take me forever to read. I don’t know why I torture myself with boredom by reading classical literature except that I am pretentious when I have no real right to be. I have been a perfectionist about myself in the past. I am high-minded to quote a scripture though I am not sure how that is a negative characteristic.
Lola the cat is relaxing too. She is such a peaceful creature. She let a visitor pet her earlier today and she didn’t try to get away unless he was holding onto her which I could not tell.
Since I got my new smart phone I have been more up on the news. I have USA Today and CNN and Fox New apps. They are constantly beeping me telling me about some new abortion news which to me has not been good news recently. Anyway, a plane went down near Egypt etc. Hearts are anguished in the world. What will it be like to not be a part of this world? We all soon will know. I hope this finds all of us in a happy place if we are decent Christian folks. Ta.
What are the main characteristics of effective relaters according to books? They are goal-centered, adaptable, clear, appropriate, interesting and respectful among other qualities that are pleasing to those who would relate to them. So how does one begin to appropriate these? With practice. According to a rather old book called Help For Shy People, one should have a goal each time one speaks to someone. How this is to be implemented is an issue I have not figured out totally though there are suggestions in the book. I just have not read it in awhile and was not impressed with what it did have to say if I remember right.
You should according to some books know beforehand what you have to offer the other person. You should also know what you are seeking so you will know when you are satisfied. You should probably generate a number of possibilities before talking with who you are going to relate with, a number of options. I can hardly imagine having a goal every time I talk to someone however I can see how that would be positive in the long run.
So I have tried to initiate something which I should have done years ago and I suppose I sort of did anyway which was have a life goal, a calling, a direction, a purpose. Now that I am 41 it seems about time. Lol. Given the mental problems I have it is all about recovery isn’t it and I know that the former is not funny really. Anyway, I wish to help people mentally. Especially those who are trying to increase their learning or adapting capacity.
I suppose one thing I can tell people which has helped me in the past is to reflect patiently with a deep purpose. You can kind of write something out when you are doing this with a kind of prayerful attitude. Think deeply about a problem or about your day for awhile. You can mull over your motivations and intentions and begin to evaluate what your purpose is. You can figure out some goals to have and decide whether they are realistic and based on expectations that are sound. You should at this point be cautious of wishful thinking. For instance, I took time to realize that this one lady probably was not too anxious to be interested in me because of various mistakes I had made so I had to decide to let go. Without putting myself in her shoes I could not really see that at that time I was inappropriate for her.
Really we should not depend on others for our enjoyment of life. We should enjoy life on the most positive terms we can glean from our present circumstances. Perhaps those characteristics which make life unlivable now will alter in the future. If we improve ourselves in the present we may attract the positive in the future. We need to be even-minded in a way that is introspective and calm. We need to be patient yet daring in a way that will be in alignment with our’s and other’s needs.
We should attend to our interests in the present moment whether they be people or books or learning of some sort. We need to channel our energy through control and focus through our willpower with utility for our purpose. Whether we are solving a problem or being creative or thinking logically there are a number of differing approaches to our collective purposes. I do not pretend to have everything sorted out. But I am working toward a synthesis of goals and solutions.
So I have been thinking which might be kind of scary to those of you who think of me negatively who have listened to my blog. I have seen that I should think more positively however that may seem to be contradictory to us who believe or think that Christ is the only way to change our hearts truly. Positive thinking a la Norman Vincent Peale may be outdated as well as Tony Robbins or those of that changing your thinking kind. But the Bible does say be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind to know what the perfect will of God is.
So now when I have a thought or fantasy or kind of a daydream which are not appropriate I ask myself why and try to discern where they are coming from even if it is from a very dark place and that seems to kind of neutralize it. I question the Lord and my conscience though indeed to one degree or another it has been burned as the Bible says. I was going to be positive wasn’t I?
I know some people look at me and all they see is darkness. If that is so I suggest you not read my blog if all you can do is comment on your blog how dark you think I have become especially when it is in some surreptitious manner.
Anyway, I guess I must mean to be a grump since I started to write “I don’t wish to be a grump.” I don’t know if you have ever heard someone say “O I don’t mean to be rude but..” They if you think about it are probably meaning to be rude or whatever they are saying they don’t intend or mean to be. That comes from Carl Jung I believe. Since I also know that when we say something with a “not” attached we are really communicating the image of whatever we are saying not to do if it is tangible in some way. Like if someone says don’t think about elephants. What are we thinking about? Not mice right. Elephants.
I personally am trying to think of myself as a nice guy which most people off the internet think of me as being. I have never punched anyone except my brother once when I was young. I got whipped for that I’ll tell you and deserved it. I am not aggressive generally. Though I was obsessive at one time that has dispersed in the air like so much smoke from fire. There might be embers of course but I don’t let them get out of control anymore.
You know I am a good guy and I think of you all out there as probably having a good heart whether you think of me as negative or not. God bless anyone who has ever thought me a jerk and indeed especially if I had been. Please forgive me if I have hurt anyone’s feelings on the internet. Sometimes I say things on the internet that I wouldn’t say in normal life because of the distance between me and said people.
Even now I realize I need to ask myself why I need to be groveling before anyone on the web. Perhaps I am being overly analytical about myself. Maybe I am over characterizing myself and others. I can also see that perhaps I am having some insight about my paranoia which since I have been taking my psychotropic medicines if that is what they are called may actually be working for once. Probably I was sick mentally 90% of the time when I have gone off on someone which doesn’t happen as much as I make out probably. There are things in my imagination and my connection making mentality that take me on quite a wild ride sometimes.
Well, I guess to sum up like I said it is probably better to try to be positive whether it stems religiously or not. Without God it will be more difficult I believe. Just smiling is important in the everyday things that happen and learning from our mistakes which I did not mention here but find very beneficial. After all the Bible says A wise man will hear and increase learning. Ta.
My reason for writing is not very complex. The reason I write is to feel somewhat normal and human and reasonable which I do not feel usually. When I see words on a page and it is something I wrote however bad others may think it I see it and I go “I wrote that!” The satisfaction of completing a blog is fascinating to me. The way the mind relaxes when I finish and the survey my mind goes through of my hopefully finished product is a lot of fun. Yeah, lots of the time when I go back and self-evaluate later I suppose I might wonder what I was thinking. But I went through some of my old blogs which got no responses because I did not tag or categorize them and that was better writing than I do now a year later. (Maybe I ought to reblog some of those old blogs. What do you think? Maybe what I ought to do is copy their simplicity and try to write as happily as I did at the beginning (if I was ever happy)).
To be quite honest I never will be Dante or Shakespeare or Keats perhaps obviously. However, it is a pleasure some of the time to write which is why I am not a very good writer. But I don’t feel I have to suffer when I write. When I don’t enjoy it any more I will stop I suppose.